dolcespezia

the unfamiliar feelings this song perpetuates is oddly comforting to me :3


"We'll do it all, everything, on our own...we don't need anything or anyone.
If I lay here, if I just lay here...would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know how to say how I feel...Those three words are said too much but not enough.
If I lay here, if I just lay here...would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told, before we get too old...Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

Let's waste time, chasing cars around our heads.
I need your grace to remind me to find my own.
If I lay here, if I just lay here...would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told, before we get too old...Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

All that I am, all that I ever was, is here in your perfect eyes--they're all I can see.
I don't know where, confused about how as well, just know that these things will never change for us at all.
If I lay here, if I just lay here...would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

I'm having trouble sleeping, as usual. listening to this song when I'm trying to sleep is a terrible idea, because it gets me in such a good mood--it's literally impossible for me to not be all happy and perky when I hear it. I'll neveeeer get to sleep now ;__; buuut, I felt the need to type out the lyrics myself--I'm a little anal about the sentence structure matching how it's actually sung, so lyric sites annoy me--and share the song that makes me so chipper all the time.

I knooooow, I know, I know, I know. it's so cliche to post lyrics on here.
but this is one of the very few songs that I can NEVER resist shouting the lyrics to like a total goof when I hear it play. it just puts a huge grin on my face ;D



"Hey, Soul Sister" by Train:

"Hey. Hey, hey.

Your lipstick stains...on the front lobe of my left side brains. I knew I wouldn't forget'cha; and so I let you blow mind.

Your sweet moving..the smell of you in every single dream I dream. I knew when we collided: You're the one I have decided, who's one of my kind.

Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister-mister on the radio, stereo?--The way you move ain't far, you know.
Hey, Soul Sister. I don't wanna miss a single thing you do...tonight.
Hey, hey. Hey.

Just in time...I'm so glad you have a one-track-mind, like me! You gave my life direction, a game-show love-connection, we can't deny~.
I'm so obsessed...my heart is bound to beat right out my un-trim chest.
I believe in you. Like a virgin, you're Madonna, and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind.

Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister-mister on the radio, stereo?--The way you move ain't far, you know.
Hey, Soul Sister. I don't wanna miss a single thing you do...tonight.
The way you can cut a rug..Watching you is the only drug I need! So 'gangsta', I'm 'so thug'--you're the only one I'm dreaming of, you see. I can be myself, now, finally--infact, there's nothing I can't be. I want the world to see you be..with me.


Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister-mister on the radio, stereo?--The way you move ain't far, you know.
Hey, Soul Sister. I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight.
Hey, Soul Sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do...tonight.
Hey, hey. Hey...tonight. Hey, hey. Hey...tonight."


the solution to this is to listen to something that puts me in an extremely mellow mood...I'll either be picking Carolina Liar's "Show Me What I'm Looking For"...or "Open Your Eyes", "Chasing Cars", or "Run" by Snow Patrol.

definitely picking "Chasing Cars" for this one.

I just got my car back from the dealership the other day, and upon looking for my notebook in my car last night I realized what odd things I had left in my backseat: my sword, a cupcake recipe book, and a box of Magic the Gathering cards. I must have seemed like the most random chick ever when I picked up my car.

I COMPLETELY forgot about that sword in my backseat, too. that's been there since Halloween. that means I've been pulled over 3 times with a big-ass sword just sitting there, and not one cop noticed or commented. this is my sword, its blade is about 31 inches long:

who doesn't notice THAT just sitting in plain view in my back seat? aside from me <_< I don't look back there ever because I'm driving, but a cop is trained to take a quick inventory of what's in the car to assess danger--maybe a gladius sword isn't dangerous? hmm.

I might be getting a second job, one MtG related again. it'd only be once or twice a month, though. I was originally hoping to save up for a new laptop that costs way too much, but I was recently talked into just having a laptop or desktop built for me because it'd be far cheaper (3,000>600). he said something about having a custom desktop or laptop being able to run Crysis on full graphics, and cited this for me: http://www.destructoid.com/my-guide-to-making-a-killer-pc-on-the-cheap-152820.phtml I have no idea what Crysis is, but I believe I'm supposed to be very impressed :3

-flails- I can't sleep.

I was having an awesome, awesome dream, and once it was over, I had this very random dream.
it was about a good friend of mine I knew online aaaages ago, this guy named Aaron that lived in Indiana, and now I'm like...fixated on finding him. the SN he always used is inactive and can't get e-mail, so I instead ended up adding like 10 guys named Aaron from Evansville and Jasper Indiana who I THINK might be him. <_< so yeah...I feel like a stalker.
not sure why it bugs me so much--which is the part that's driving me insane. I'll most likely get over it by the afternoon and wonder who all the guys named Aaron on my FB are.

so far, this morning sucks.

I had an assignment that required me to detail out certain scenes in Forrest Gump. It was about 4am and I was trying to figure out a way to keep myself awake, when the scene with the Black Panthers came about. I couldn't resist making fun of it as a way to entertain myself and keep from falling asleep. The only thing is, I don't even remember about half of this.
You all know me and know I'm not a racist, so I shouldn't even have to remind you, but yeah. I just happen to hate the 70's and everything affiliated with it, especially hippies and the Black Panthers.


"Just as he speaks, the window they are looking out of suddenly has its Black-Panther-picture-clad-blinder pulled down by a token 70’s BP black guy who does a token black guy bitch-rant, saying 'Get that blind down, man, and get yo white-ass away from that window. Don’t you know we’re in a war here?' Token black guy, fuck yeah. Scary black guy starts patting Forrest down until Jenny is annoying as usual: 'He’s cool, he’s cool! He’s one of us!' Scary black guy gets offended and raises his scary black guy finger and uses his scary black angry voice to say 'Let me tell you about us! Our purpose here is to protect our blah blah blah no one gives a fuck, everything sucks because I’m black' Sleazy, greasy, hippie guy looks Forrest up and down and asks 'Whose the baby killer?' Jenny NONCHALANTLY responds 'This is my good friend I told you about, Forrest Gump. Forrest, this is Wesley(?)' annnnd suddenly and seemingly out of nowhere, black guy runs back into scene with verbal-bullshit-diarrhea! blah blah blah endure more BP crap. Forrest ignores scary black guy screaming in his ear, instead focused on the hushed argument Jenny and her sleazy boyfriend are having within the vicinity. LOL SLAP! Forrest’s eyes bug out and pimp music gets louder while he slow-mo walks to the dirty hippy and knocks him the fuck out. Puts him over a table and fuckin’ wails on him while Jenny acts like an ungrateful bitch. Pulls Forrest off her STD-supplier while he winces and seethes like a beat-down-bitch-boat."

It's nearly 7:30am and I still haven't been to bed yet...pulled a major 'lost-track-of-time' and resolved to not go to class a few hours ago. There's just no fuckin' way I'll pull through a day of classes on 0 hours of sleep. No worries though, I'll be going to my night one which is once a week. The other two classes earlier in the day aren't so important.

I can hear my dad running around upstairs :x I should probably get to bed soon.

hummm...what to talk about?

I figured I'd update for the sake of updating.

My sister will be moving into her new house in a little over a week...I wonder if she needs help packing? ;o lemmie know if you do, Amanda! Oh, and I watched Twilight...I just might want to borrow the books from you. MIGHT. as in MAYBE. because if I did it would make me a total fucking TOOL for badmouthing Twilight nonstop. fuuuuuck.

I think I'll want this for Halloween now instead of Ren Fair...I actually bought a fairly expensive head-piece/tiara type thing from Ren Fair that'll go with this, so to get some use out of it I might as well buy a costume to wear it with. I know I posted it before, but whatev, you'll stfu and you'll LIKE IT. http://www.trashy.com/Joan-of-Arc.6317-product.htm

Alright, I'm done for now.

xoxo <3

if you know me, you know I love baking cupcakes. my favorite cupcake recipe has nearly ruined all cupcakes for me, because eating one without something fantastic (like cheesecake) combined just seems sooooo plaaaaaain.

I baked 32 for a Laser Tag lock in tomorrow that'll have 30 people there (I'll have exactly 30 by the time it starts, I always taste-test one and force my dad to eat one). they are my usual cupcakes--"black bottom", which are basically 1/3rd chocolate cupcake and 2/3rds cheesecake with chocolate chips plus white chocolate frosting, all made from scratch. I'm gonna try out some new frosting techniques/decorations, specifically putting a raspberry or two ontop of the frosting..I can't believe I never thought of it before, cheesecake + raspberries and white chocolate + raspberries are both fantastic combinations, it should have been a no-brainer!

I'm getting a bit tired of being a one-trick pony when it comes to cupcakes, but I have difficulty finding something online that is more creative than the cheesecake-cupcake blend recipe I love.

I've been looking at tons of cupcake recipe books on amazon.com, I'm hoping that once my car sells (I seem to be relying on that an awful lot x_x) I can spare $30-40 for a few of them (hopefully I can find some used copies). there are a lot of promising looking ones, but I'm very set on having ones that display pictures of the finished product, not to mention making sure the recipes are all from scratch.
I think I'll see if the library has any of the cupcake recipe books I've bookmarked on my browser before I make any final decisions--heck, maybe I won't need to buy any if they're all there, my recipes would just be a scan away!

the other baking-based expense I have my heart set on (and can't hope to find at a library) is this gorgeous Jessie Steele apron... @_@ isn't it just the cutest thing?!




I think I'm going to intentionally mess with my sleeping schedule to compensate for the weird hours of the LT lock in (it's 11pm-6am)
I'll start frosting my cupcakes within an hour...but for now I'm catching up on What Not to Wear on my DVR! now don't get me wrong, I adore Nick Arrojo, he's an amazing hair stylist but...Ted Gibson is so adorable! not to mention thus far he seems like a total sweet heart--pluuuus he totally pulls off the lavender and pink dress shirts! very few men in this world are capable of that ;D
I always said I'd be more than willing to dress like total shit for two weeks straight if it meant 5k, fashion tips from Clinton Kelly and Stacy London, plus a haircut from Nick Arrojo...I'd still be oh so very happy to do so with Ted Gibson taking over the hair styling! as a friend of mine humorously put it, "Ted Gibson, you can play with my hair *any* day of the week"

xoxo Nikki

PS: would changing my last name to Valentine make me have a stripper name? Nikki Valentine... "catchy, but also strippery" ".......strippery? I don't think that's a word" "of course it is"

I've been to Gen Con once before when my sister took me for half a day--I forget how old I was, maybe 12 or 13? eh, no clue. I'm planning on going this year--except I haven't actually *planned*.

to be honest whether or not I go depends entirely on whether or not my car sells, otherwise I'm too broke :x I diiiiiiiid hope to get this cute/sexy girl warrior outfit (I'll link/explain it at the end of the post), but I'm fairly certain that only if I ordered it today would I get it on time. I don't even know if I'd just stay one day or more, not to mention which day(s)--silly, right? chances are that even if I do manage to have enough gas money (or hitch a ride) I still wouldn't be able to get a badge, unless by some wonderful miracle someone buys my friggin' car.

I was kind of counting on having the warrior costume by the time the con came around, I've only not cosplayed at a con one or two days in the past 4 years, so I'd feel somewhat out of place! I already do have a very very nice costume I spent lots of money on, but it is a huge hassel to get on and off, and I'm afraid it'd be a little out of place (I don't recall what type of cosplay went on there the time I went). I usually give out or sell Pocky when wearing it at conventions.

the place I get them from is the same place some celebs go to for their costumes--I actually found out about the place by watching Girls Next Door, that's where they get all their costumes for the huge parties they throw at the Playboy mansion! it's called Trashy, their store is in CA but they do sell stuff online (Trashy.com). everything is handmade, and I absolutely love the quality of the cigarette girl costume I already got from them--especially the corset, is has real boning and isn't uncomfortable to wear.

the warrior girl costume is pictured below...no, it is not see-through, and because I am short/petite my ass will not be hanging out of the outfit (I called about measurements, plus I have a few petticoats anyways). I wouldn't bother with the expensive helmet though. I wouldn't consider buying it if it were solely for Gen Con--I liked the fact I would *finally* have something to wear at Ren Fair!